{"id":1276,"date":"1992-09-19T18:17:14","date_gmt":"1992-09-20T01:17:14","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/sm.amigotico.com\/poetryblog\/?p=1276"},"modified":"2012-12-09T18:18:38","modified_gmt":"2012-12-10T02:18:38","slug":"untitled-september-19th-1992","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/smpoetry.amigotico.com\/index.php\/1992\/09\/19\/untitled-september-19th-1992\/","title":{"rendered":"Untitled, September 19th, 1992"},"content":{"rendered":"<p>I fear the reality<br \/>\nof the decisions I must make;<br \/>\nI fear the feeling of aloneness<br \/>\nin those decisions;<br \/>\nI fear the decisions;<br \/>\nI fear myself.<\/p>\n<p>Is there a confidence not there,<br \/>\nis there a force still lacking?<br \/>\nI know I can help,<br \/>\nbut don&#8217;t know<br \/>\nif the help is needed.<\/p>\n<p>Have I helped enough already?<br \/>\nOr have I just begun?<\/p>\n<p>I ask myself,<br \/>\nI ask myself.<\/p>\n<p>I ask the world to answer me.<br \/>\nI fear the<\/p>\n<p>silence that<br \/>\nensues.<\/p>\n<p>No answer comes out to enrapture me.<br \/>\nNo answer, no direction,<br \/>\nno guidance.<\/p>\n<p>I have lost the faith<br \/>\nand the trust in myself.<br \/>\nI have asked the universe,<\/p>\n<p>but not myself.<\/p>\n<p>I have forgotten that the universe<\/p>\n<p>is the self.<\/p>\n<p>The self is the universe,<br \/>\nand I must face myself.<br \/>\nI must ask myself these things.<\/p>\n<p>The answer will then be clear.<br \/>\nI will know the universe is<br \/>\non my side.<\/p>\n<p>As long as I go with it.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>I fear the reality<br \/> of the decisions I must make;<br \/> I fear the feeling of aloneness<br \/> in those decisions;<br \/> I fear the decisions;<br \/> I fear myself.<\/p>\n<p>Is there a confidence not there,<br \/> is there a force still lacking?<br \/> I know I can help,<br \/> but don&#8217;t know<br \/> if the help is needed.<\/p>\n<p> [&#8230;]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[11,1],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-1276","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-introspection","category-poems"],"jetpack_featured_media_url":"","_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/smpoetry.amigotico.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/1276","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/smpoetry.amigotico.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/smpoetry.amigotico.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/smpoetry.amigotico.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/smpoetry.amigotico.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=1276"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"https:\/\/smpoetry.amigotico.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/1276\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":1277,"href":"https:\/\/smpoetry.amigotico.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/1276\/revisions\/1277"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/smpoetry.amigotico.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=1276"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/smpoetry.amigotico.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=1276"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/smpoetry.amigotico.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=1276"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}