{"id":1347,"date":"1994-07-13T00:05:56","date_gmt":"1994-07-13T07:05:56","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/sm.amigotico.com\/poetryblog\/?p=1347"},"modified":"2012-12-09T19:23:04","modified_gmt":"2012-12-10T03:23:04","slug":"selfish","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/smpoetry.amigotico.com\/index.php\/1994\/07\/13\/selfish\/","title":{"rendered":"Selfish"},"content":{"rendered":"<p>This emptiness<br \/>\neats at the<br \/>\nvery core of my being;<br \/>\neats away at<br \/>\nthese emotions.<\/p>\n<p>Consumed,<br \/>\nconsumed,<br \/>\nas the wood becomes ash,<br \/>\napprizing me of my finite time,<br \/>\nconsumed I am,<br \/>\nan emptiness to blame.<\/p>\n<p>The essence of who I am<br \/>\nhas been ripped from me,<br \/>\nheld up to the<br \/>\nsun in<br \/>\nraucous triumph,<br \/>\na still beating Mayan sacrifice.<\/p>\n<p>Ha! But that sacrifice<br \/>\nwould have meaning.<\/p>\n<p>My emptiness does not.<br \/>\nMy loss is my loss,<br \/>\nbut should not be a loss.<br \/>\nThe friend I&#8217;ve lost<br \/>\nshall still be my friend,<br \/>\nthough empty, lonely,<br \/>\nhis untimely departure<br \/>\nhas left me.<\/p>\n<p>How selfish I am.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>This emptiness<br \/> eats at the<br \/> very core of my being;<br \/> eats away at<br \/> these emotions.<\/p>\n<p>Consumed,<br \/> consumed,<br \/> as the wood becomes ash,<br \/> apprizing me of my finite time,<br \/> consumed I am,<br \/> an emptiness to blame.<\/p>\n<p>The essence of who I am<br \/> has been ripped from me,<br \/> held up to [&#8230;]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[11,13,1],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-1347","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-introspection","category-personal","category-poems"],"jetpack_featured_media_url":"","_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/smpoetry.amigotico.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/1347","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/smpoetry.amigotico.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/smpoetry.amigotico.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/smpoetry.amigotico.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/smpoetry.amigotico.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=1347"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"https:\/\/smpoetry.amigotico.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/1347\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":1348,"href":"https:\/\/smpoetry.amigotico.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/1347\/revisions\/1348"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/smpoetry.amigotico.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=1347"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/smpoetry.amigotico.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=1347"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/smpoetry.amigotico.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=1347"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}