{"id":2417,"date":"2015-04-03T14:23:50","date_gmt":"2015-04-03T21:23:50","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/sm.amigotico.com\/poetryblog\/?p=2417"},"modified":"2015-04-03T14:23:50","modified_gmt":"2015-04-03T21:23:50","slug":"uncontrolled","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/smpoetry.amigotico.com\/index.php\/2015\/04\/03\/uncontrolled\/","title":{"rendered":"Uncontrolled"},"content":{"rendered":"<p>There is this agony inside that uncontrols me,<br \/>\nusurps my will for rational,<br \/>\nusurps my temporal being.<br \/>\nIt uncontrols me, without revealing itself<br \/>\nto that being uncontrolled;<br \/>\nit hides itself<br \/>\nfrom me<\/p>\n<p>it is me<\/p>\n<p>it&#8217;s obvious to those around me<br \/>\nbut only the closest;<br \/>\nonly the few who can be hurt<br \/>\nso easily by me<\/p>\n<p>my only outlet<br \/>\nmy only prison<\/p>\n<p>of mind and soul to this uncontrolled<br \/>\nand unstable state of being<\/p>\n<p>a state of me<br \/>\nan obstruction to being free<\/p>\n<p>and a result of lack of freedom<br \/>\nto discover and be me<\/p>\n<p>a cycle inescapable,<br \/>\nbut breakable.<br \/>\nby something that&#8217;s had no start yet,<br \/>\nwhich makes it hard to see an end<\/p>\n<p>it&#8217;s a wait and see<\/p>\n<p>uncontrolled this cycle.<\/p>\n<p>forgotten sometimes<br \/>\non a bicycle<\/p>\n<p>but still a looming state<br \/>\nof being<\/p>\n<p>a state that is defining me.<br \/>\nthat is me.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>There is this agony inside that uncontrols me,<br \/> usurps my will for rational,<br \/> usurps my temporal being.<br \/> It uncontrols me, without revealing itself<br \/> to that being uncontrolled;<br \/> it hides itself<br \/> from me<\/p>\n<p>it is me<\/p>\n<p>it&#8217;s obvious to those around me<br \/> but only the closest;<br \/> only the few who can be hurt<br [...]\n<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[11,13,1],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-2417","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-introspection","category-personal","category-poems"],"jetpack_featured_media_url":"","_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/smpoetry.amigotico.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/2417","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/smpoetry.amigotico.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/smpoetry.amigotico.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/smpoetry.amigotico.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/smpoetry.amigotico.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=2417"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"https:\/\/smpoetry.amigotico.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/2417\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":2418,"href":"https:\/\/smpoetry.amigotico.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/2417\/revisions\/2418"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/smpoetry.amigotico.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=2417"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/smpoetry.amigotico.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=2417"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/smpoetry.amigotico.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=2417"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}