Life’s changes come
expected or not
Sometimes we’re prepared
Sometimes we’re in a state of blissful ignorance
Or wistfully ignoring
the inevitable path our actions have led us to.

I fear not the coming end.
The escape from complexity
to clarity
or nothingnesss

Either is the greener grass on the other side
of this life

Either is where I won’t object to going,
escaping the complexities
and pressures
of an unsustainable life

or lifestyle

And yet
I am reminded of the many
whose complex situations only
bring out their fortitude
and valor
their perseverance and pride

as they humbly seek the refuge of another country

I too see refuge from another country
another past

and am trapped by that refuge.

The complex, all or nothing
options to escape this complexity
weigh too heavily
on the heart and mind

and make the escape from choice another choice.

I’ll not travel down that choice, but I will not fight it’s arrival.

I am ready.

Thankful.

and sorry.