The Dance of the Tell Tales

As fair trades blow and and push me on
To where I’m going, far beyond
The horizons I now see,
To a place where I can discover me.

Forward and onward so I race,
Guided by the guiding grace
of the compass, a star, a sun and a moon,
and a line of latitude each day at noon.

But something else keeps me right on track,
The dance of the tell-tales keeps me on tack,
keeping my billowing sails so full,
to keep me moving on through the world.

The tell-tales dance to let me know
If my sails are right, or else I would slow,
and take longer to reach that saving place
where I can discover me, so I race,

Onward and onward through wind and wave
steering my little ship, undismayed
by the perils of weather, or loneliness at sea;
just driven on by my love for the sea.

And even as I watch those tell tales dance,
They hold me mesmerized, keep me entranced,
As I realize that I have found that place
To find myself–It is this boat, this race.

Untitled, January 10th, 1992

I’ll never fear a death again, for
When I die again, I’ll know:
I’ve been there before!

Death and Life, two polar opposites;
Each defines and creates the other.

So I can be dead, or I can be not dead: alive.
I am now alive. I will be dead.
But before I was born where was I?
I was not alive.
I must have been dead.

Well, wouldn’t you know it.

Something Spiritual

Something spiritual happens here.
Do you feel it?

Something real, vibrant and alive.
Do you see it?

Something cleansing, renewing, rebuilding.
Do you know it?

Something that is the outcome of all forces.
Do you hear it?

There it is!

That wave crashing on the shore.

I’m Sorry

I’m sorry for all I haven’t done
to save this dying planet.
I’m sorry for all the mistakes I made
in not thinking not to waste it.
I’m sorry for all the lies I told,
like “the human race is great.”
I’m sorry for not knowing that
I could have saved it.

A sense of…

There is a sense of the forboding
A sense of the unreal
There is a sense of knowing
A sense I sense indeed.

There is a sense of belonging
To what, I don’t really know
There is a sense of longing
For the Spirit to go home.

There is a sense of being
That comes from all I’ve seen
There is a sense of feeling
That defines and conquers me.

There is a sense of being
That comes from all I’ve been
There is a sense of being
That defines and conquers me.

There is a sense of living;
That comes from all I am;
There is a sense of giving
To the life that I would lead.

Paradise

It was just a little taste,
But a taste it was.
I have tasted paradise.

I stumbled upon it one day,
While riding my bicycle, alone,
Down some long dusty trail.

There it was,
Paradise!

And who’d have ever guessed
That I’d find paradise
Hiding in my head.

Untitled, December 7th, 1991

Every time I see the sun go down another time,
And feel the coolness of the evening come over me,
I think to myself how good it is to be here
Watching the sun give way to the evening.

Then some other part of me digresses for the moment,
Thinking about how many poor unfortunate souls
Are missing out on the experience of the end of another day,
Who aren’t watching the sun give way to the evening.

For the experience of it all is paramount to the value of each day.
For those who value each day gone and look forward to the next,
The ritual setting of the sun becomes a tool for keeping order
Of one’s life, prioritizing one’s values.

For it matters not from where you see the sun go down,
But that you see it and are thankful for the day.
That day is gone and will never be replaced.
Why waste the day?

Those who have wasted the day and are not grateful for its passage
Do not rejoice in the day gone, that they will never get again.
Instead, they lose their priorities,
thinking activity the superior to pondering and being.

Being for being’s sake is the ultimate expression of being human.
The human being is for being’s sake, the ultimate expression of life.
But this ultimate expression is finite in time and space.
There is a perceived beginning and a presumed end.

We perceive the beginning of each human’s being,
But not the beginning of being itself.
Therefore there cannot be any being that is itself not human
Not confined by time and space.

I let the sun sink slowly down and am thankful for another day,
I am thankful that I have pondered yet another time,
have breathed ten thousand breaths,
I am thankful, that I am one day closer to understanding,
Even though I understand no more.

Fluidity

I touched the wind
and felt at once the
fluidity of sky. . .
feeling fluidity of mind
as sky and mind meld into
an incongruous mixture of
the tangible and not.

Though the moment lasted
but a moment, that moment
now exists for all of time
caught as a thought and feeling:
an experience I left behind.

Secret

Whatever secret mysteries unfold,
I shall be there, shall behold
the dawning of new understanding
when through the shattered myth of days now passed,
the universe embraces us.

And through those shattered myths now gone,
the universe and I shall sing one song
of unity and freedom,
For there shall be no other way
The universe can be.

I have wept long and lonely for too long;
When a universe could not embrace my conscious soul.
I had not embraced the universe myself,
had never given in to the cause of causes.

But from that solemn moment when I did
embrace the universe with unquestioning repose,
Something poured forth into my soul.
T’was as though I’d never known myself before
That day the universe opened it’s door
and took me in.

Surfing

Surfing is a state of mind,
In which the finder finds
Some arbitrary confinement of the senses
Within the infinite bounds
of a greater reality.

Through interaction of wave and sky,
The surfing mind alludes to
The greatness that at once beholds
Takes hold,
and shatters all illusion.

The world inside the wave,
As any surfer will tell,
Is sum of all experience,
The sum of all being.

Surfing is a state of mind,
In which the finder finds,
That within natures expression
That is the crashing wave,
All can be found.

Within every tiny universe,
the one inside the wave,
the one inside the mind,
all reality can be found.