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roll the miles away
two-wheeled freedom enriches
pedal, pedal on
moon’s disc fully round
pallidly illuminate
night is yours alone
I didn’t feign presence, but tore it out.
This doubt, a dubious crutch
supporting an unscrupulous habit
there is no other excuse
nor meaning.
Not a dream though dreaming
a momentary escape
from the tangible woes
I have enthroned.
My conscience confides,
but cannot hide;
I take the lessons with a vengeance
dole out a fitting penance
and walk the planks of
tossing ships on stormy waters;
tossing lives, a tumult
unreconciled.
To believe in imagination,
or imagine I’m believing?
I do not sense the meaning.
Meanings not sensible
or important
to the moment;
From the ship of life I plunge away
to test the waters of fate
weighed down by
things and things and things
that I imagine,
that have no apparent meaning.
My doubtful crutch
the meaningless habit
a penitential dream
whose sole awakening
I take within
I believe
in imagination
the key to killing the life I know
finding out who
could take the place of me
A more refined
more mature
less scandalous
future version of me.
And so passes another day
the routine ingrained
like the predictability of ocean’s tides,
or repeated rising of resplendent sun.
I trudge wearily on and on.
Have I forgotten how to strive?
Lost the will to survive?
In this existence tarry onward,
as an instinctive insect plying
I move and act without trying.
Emotions now escape me
repetition enslaves me;
mindlessness of doing what I must.
I’m now a cog in the machine
a statistic in this scheme.
With or without me in it,
the world continues spinning
this mechanism does its thing.
Expendable; I do not stop.
Redundant: living, this is not.
And so passed another day
the earth’s rotation stays unswayed
unstoppable;
the endless days that confine,
to break this cycle, must I die?
Or relinquish to the time?
find to what I’d aspire,
once again, strive.
And so starts another day.
time knows no limits
do not pass time, use it well
for our time runs out.
There is no consoling silence
wherein I might find solace
only the raucous cacophony
of these rebel rousers’ unrest.
While I seek inward to a center,
pine for nurturing rest,
to feel sleep’s soft tendrils
descend over me
to caress,
to calm
and soothe my weariness.
Though not apprised of turning inward
nor of silence, nor natural rest
solace by them is sought
through chemical malfeasance.
Enticing a brain to an altered perception
a state of numbness,
their predilection
a false solace it is at best.
I too am desirous of,
addicted one could say,
to altered states of perception
though attained in a natural way
That inward peace and calm
reflection on life and breath
an altered state of mental quietude,
not the numbness at the behest
of some external influence
of the chemicals they ingest.
We all are seeking something
addicts we might say,
trying to find something
beyond the normality
of each mundane day.
Sublime progression–
time–
an inordinate obsession.
Strings of memories,
some sweet, some dark,
some vacant unremarkable,
created in its wake,
only to be relinquished
to the uncharted, undistinguished
backwaters
of a tormented, languished mind.
Vanquished time,
its unending approach
allows hopes
facilitates dreams,
allows the promise of what might be;
its interminable passing
creates memories,
realizes regrets
dashes dreams,
brings to fore the sorrow
of what might have been.
This sublime progression
never slows, stalls, stops,
never leaves us in suspension
(except as frozen in those
dark, sweet, vacant memories).
Time’s illusion,
our confusion,
is that time speeds up
maliciously dashing more dreams,
fulfilling fewer hopes,
subversively undermining
our intentions,
leaving us behind with
our regrets.
Our regrets:
defining decrepit age,
signifying the life that
won’t ever be complete,
unlike our dreams,
the hallmarks of youth,
the province of a life
to be completed.
Conversely, time’s gifts,
to take the frozen memories
from its wake,
sweeten the sweet ones,
diminish the darkest of them,
and to help forget
those in between:
the vacant, unremarkable
in those uncharted backwaters
of our being.
or to forget our dreams.
I’ll confound time’s confabulations
defy time’s prerogative
and exercise mine.
I will not allow time
to take away my dreams
dash my hopes,
abandon youth,
relinquish myself to
the vicissitudes of age.
I’ll maintain that youth
perilously clinging to
my outlook on a life
that will yet be complete.
I ponder this obsession,
time’s progression.
Sublimity be damned
this pondering only succeeds
in progressing time.
motionless time waits
inside green room of water
perfect elation