the words
unloaded from my heart
don’t make the weight
any less

and I wail
and let forth the sound
that breaks me thus
and brings me
into touch
with the reality of my
own being

I haven’t felt
these feelings
before
I care not to
feel them again

but the weight of the feelings
unloaded from
my heart
doesn’t make the life
any easier

don’t make the love
any sweeter

don’t make the heart bleed
any longer

I go on
despondent
in all life’s dealings
left behind
and set apart

not as I would be remembered

but that leaves
the truth unheard
no truth less hidden
less despised
or less feared

I take on the moments
one by one
and with each moment passing
a thought is gone

a thought created
a thought passed on
a feeling felt and left behind
a feeling remembered
and forgotten all at once
for the feelings flow onward and forward
they come so fast
they leave behind an indelible mark
that I would forget and I would erase

But alas, the feeling has found its place
in my heart,
And I try to unload with the words I sing
the weight of the feelings
weighing down my heart.