Fine line

Walking along the sands
where the land meets the sea
I felt balanced on the fine line
Between life and death.

So easily could I have lost that balance
fallen to either side,
to the land where life is lived and tired
or to the sea, where I want to be.

But should a desire to fall to the sea,
to leave this realm of life
preclude the life on the land.

To go on living is to cling to a life
To go to the sea is to relinquish the life
I know that I want;
I cannot but have.

But to live and go on living,
I must have both,
and neither.

Forgotten

Wandering restlessly over the
depths of a mind
which wanders restlessly,
I find there is more to this life
than living.

There is more to this life than living.There is more to this life
than just living.

And when getting on with the
act of life
I’d forgotten the value of living.
I’d forgotten how to live.

Yet something keeps urging me on towards this life.

For a moment, I’d forgotten
how to live.
I’d forgotten how to live now.

I remembered how to summon a past
I can cherish the balance of history.
I know how to dream for the future.
I see what the future could bring.
But I’d forgotten how to live in the present.
I’d forgotten that I was alive.

Ramblings I

Walking through the world
Step by stifling step
I see
too many others taking stifling
steps oblivious to their lives.

Walking through the world
I hadn’t seen the things that we had thought that there
were any of the things that
In another world,
Yes,
In another world, there are other
things
which do not stifle.

Other breaths to breathe,
Other sights to see,
Other minds to live. But then one day
we will find that there is just too
much
going on for all of the things that we
really want to do. I have no way to
control this feeling.

I have no way to control this feeling.

I have no way to control this feeling.

But then I control this feeling anyway, and
let it control me in
the same process.
There is nothing more to say, They have all gone away, he said.

There is nothing more to say. I said.

Alone on the sea

A sailor’s never as happy
As when he’s alone on the sea,
With the trades just abaft of the beam,
And a light, though following sea,
And the clouds to amuse and
The waves to invite
And a sun to guide him
To the port’s leading lights–
Yes, a sailor’s never as happy
As when he’s alone on the sea.

Searching

Searching,
Sad,
This isn’t the First Death.
The first glory long ago was a death
A renewal of life.

Searching,
I haven’t found that First Death.
I haven’t found any death,
So I’m not sure I’ve experienced life.

So much haunts me.
Daunting energy of the timeless spirit
I’m trying to set free.

And then there’s me.
I’m not sure where I fit in–
Is this ego me,
Or is this ego just a symptom
Of a spirit not set free.

Valentine’s Day

It’s times like these I wish to say
So much I feel inside,
But there seems no easier way to say
I love you,
Than to simply say —
I love you.

And you know what’s said
Is felt and held true in my heart,
But there seems no easier way to say
I love you,
Than to simply say —
I love you.

Not even gifts, adornments, or
Showers of love
Can show you in so easy a way
That I love you,
Than to simply say —
I love you.

So be my valentine on this day,
So showered with love we both may stay,
And however I show it, whatever way I say
I love you,
You’ll simply know that
I love you.

Box

Drawn in to the mindlessness of it all;
there is a seeming sense of distance

from one’s
self

induced by a feeling of a separate world.
Inside electronic circuits,
conducted on waves we decode with boxes.
A world perfidiously injected into the

consciousness
of all

who perceive it.

That world masks any vestige of reality
left in the conscious experience of
its mindless addicts.

That world coming through the box
distorts our relationship to the here and now.
It brings us a world

other than here,
other than now.

And yet,
it brings the world into the superficial
realms of sensory experience.

Left confused, muddled,
inundated, and manipulated
by the complexity of a world not understood:
it is a haven.

A haven for mindless escape from a world
that leaves us confused, muddled.
A world that inundates us with complexity.

We have no seeming control over that perfidious

electronic injection
into our consciousness.

(Except, of course, the remote control.)

But to turn off that box is to return our consciousness
to the reality of the world the box allowed an escape from,
and an escape to.

Once poisoned thus,
never can a world be experienced in quite the same way.
Never can a world be truly experienced.

Nature of things

There is a nature of things
that takes this mind away into
perfusions of some far begotten
sensory disillusionment,
to leave in a naturally disastrous
wake the leftover pieces of
what some would call a civilization,
But I would call a scar on the face
of nature; some malingering festering
sore that would take all of the life
away from nature and give it to . . .

only to lose the true nature of things
that gives life,

that is life.

Closer

Morning sun heralds another dawn,
With its faint sweet smells and white noise sounds;
The day breaks and I look around,
To find myself one day further from home.

Evening light dims and I dim too,
A cooling reflection of a life I’d forgotten.
Night falls and as it does,
I know I am one day closer to home.

Love/Hate

There’s a lot of love/hate going on
I’ve seen the many faces
Love can bear,
and I’ve felt most all the faces
Of a hateful stare.